hey guys, im back. i know i've been slacking, so here's an update:
- stopped dating one guy
- getting to know someone else
- works been a bitch
- been talking a lot to my friends about how i can tell my parents
- i don't really have time to date right now, but ironically, more people seem to talk to me now, at restaurants, at the gym, etc. i guess its true what they say, things happen when you don't really try
- the playoffs have been phenomenal - i'm pissed that the Pats won, i hate them. yes brady is hot, but i hate the Pats. I'm pulling for the Saints.
my friend told me something the other night, and i was really taken aback -- in a good way. he basically said something along the lines of: "i'm surprised, you present yourself so self assuredly, you're hot, you don't care what people think about you, and you really carry yourself in a way thats not overly cocky, but you're very secure with yourself. that's why i find it soo hard to believe that you're scared to tell your old friends and family. you, out of all people, seem like it would be a cinch."
i was deeply touched when he said that. i'm sure i botched up his whole delivery, but you get the gist of it. to hear a friend speak of me in such a genuinely flattering light was rather humbling. it made me realize how good i have it, but it also made me realize how big of a coward i am. he's right though, im a bit cocky and arrogant in all aspects of my life EXCEPT this one. i may overcompensate for this insecurity, but one of these days, i will get over it. reading about other people's experiences has definitely helped. one day, i hope to write my post-coming-out entry. until then, i'll just continue being a prick... :P